I Am Still Hoping . . .

. . that Lauryn Hill makes a comeback. That I'll lose enough weight to fit into my cute clothes I bought too small on purpose. I still hope that Girlfriends makes a comeback with all of the original cast.

Hope springs eternal.

I hope I can finish my novel. I need an ending. I am waiting on life to provide one for me. Every ending I write seems inauthentic. Should I just commit? IDK.

Hopealive

I am still hoping that I get hired on where I currently work. If that is not God's will, that he will allow me to get the job I am currently interviewing for.

Faith without works is dead.

I hope I get the wish I want that I am keeping to myself for now.

Keep hope alive!

Catching Up – My Audition

I did not get the part but. . .

Hope

. . .I got some great feedback and some rays of hope.

Basically, both producers loved my monologue but it was my scene with the other actors that did not go as well.

I was told that I need more confidence with my body. I rocked a bit during my scene and it distracted from my words.

That's funny because that is the same weakness I identified coming into the audition.

I was not sure where to stand. I basically studied assuming we would be on a stage during the audition. We were actually in a casting room. There was really no space to "walk in." You kind of had to just had to start speaking.

It was quite the experience. I think I would like to start a few classes this summer.

Next time I will be ready.

Catching Up – The Random and the Frightening

If I had to describe this weekend in a short phrase, I would say it was kinda awesome.

Faced a big fear, learned a lesson.

Fear

It is difficult to walk by faith when worry/anxiety has been your motif operandi. Faith is the only surety in life. Relying on my own resources would mean never accomplishing anything. Relying on God's infinite resources is leading me into things I could only see in my dreams.#lessonlearned.

I had my first real audition. YEAH!

Back when I was taking classical vocal lessons, I had the opportunity to audition for a musical and chickened out. I, once again, was looking at my circumstances and limited resources. I told myself that if I ever got a second chance, I would not let fear keep me from it.

So I happen to know somebody, who knows somebody who knows somebody, that was casting a play. I met her over a year or two ago. She kept me on her email list. I told her when we met that if she knew of any auditions, if she could keep me in mind. Fast forward a year or two I get this email. They are casting an African American actress in a play.

My own resources = no acting class in forever, no head shots, no recent experience. God's resources = infinite.

Longer story short, I studied the slides, went in and had a blast.

I read one scene and was given a monologue,asked to review it and come back. I finished my monologue and the woman said, "That was great!"

SOOOO, I hope I got it. I am still a winner though because I finally #facedmyfear.

What triumphs are you celebrating this week?

So I Removed My Bionic Lashes and. . .

. . .I'm still cute. lol

A co-worker complimented my eyes without the lashes. She said my eyes looked brighter. So maybe the bionic parts thing is all in my head. No way to truly tell.

The really cute Puerto Rican deliver guy called me baby today. Not sure how I feel about that. It was a very casual, "Talk to you later, baby." Like, for realz?

You better be lucky you're the cuteness. lol

New co-worker. He is such a flirt. Plus he is funny. Plus he is single, unlike this dude. But he is younger than I am.

Womp. Womp.

The saga continues.

Graduation – OMG

Written March 21st, 2010. 

I started this journey almost 4 years ago. I was working at Payless, thinking is this what college got me? I decided to make a change. I changed my whole life to go back to school. At first I took some undergrad classes in business. I then studied up for the GMAT.

When  I started school, everything was easy breezy. I then got a very high demand job that was stressing me out. I even took a semester off. During the interim, I moved to Texas.

I say all that to say that slow and steady really does win the race. You just have to work at your goal day by day, even when the odds are not in your favor.

I am writing this after spending like 24 hours finishing my graduation project. Today I bought my cap and gown. This is really happening for me.

I don’t know what tomorrow holds but I know Who holds tomorrow. I really do believe God rewards the bold. Those who dare to step out on faith.

So here I go – one step at a time.

Seven Annoying Habits I Have Being Single

There is a certain freedom that come with being single. A freedom that is threatened with the introduction of a significant other in your life. When I seriously think about being married, I realize I would have to give up certain freedoms that another person might find rather annoying.

Like:

  1. Wearing Granny Panties – I know, TMI, but they are sooo comfortable. This one goes hand-in-hand with – Matching Panties and Bra.

  2. Farting – *blushing* I fart, ok. Usually, at night but, hey, it is just me. #Freedom
  3. Eating Raw Garlic – I love garlic but usually shy away from it in social settings. At home alone, I eat it on salads raw. It is good for the heart, right?
  4. My Hair Is Everywhere – Maybe I need to trim my ends but my hair seems to be everywhere. I just just leave where it lands until clean up day.
  5. I Sing A Lot – This was way annoying to my sister but she's a hater. lol
  6. I Hate Shaving – If I were a lesbian, I would be the hairiest lesbian you'd ever meet. I would not shave, wax, pluck or thread a darn thing on my body. I abhor it BUT I do it because it makes me look presentable, like a LADY.
  7. I Don't Cook – I am seriously considering taking a culinary class when I graduate. I hear a way to man's heart is his stomach and I need a paved road.

What are some of your annoying habits? If you are married, what are some of your spouses annoying habits that you put up with?


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    Here’s to Keeping Keeping Promises. . .

    . . .to myself.

    I made a couple of resolutions this year. Those were my main, public goals. To myself, I promised to get out more. More specifically, to go to a social event 2 times a month.

    I went to a Jazz cafe for my birthday and a networking dinner for a professional group I belong to. At this dinner, I met a nice young man who had just completed his MBA. I felt confident and cute. I was flirtatious and witty, even if I must say so myself! lol

    I don't know where this confidence came from but I am loving it. At the end of the dinner, the guy shook my hand and gave me his card. I gave him mine. He has not called yet but that is beside the point. The point is I got out and was sociable and . . .fearless.

    Secondly, I promised the Lord, if he blessed me with a job (and He did) I would volunteer. I wanted to use the talents God has given me to give back.

    Well, I have an audition coming up for a group that records reading material for the blind. I really would like to do this. Just to show how God is always working things out, I'll tell this little story.

    I get to the reading center, the volunteer coordinator is giving me a tour of the facilities. I see the name of a friend's husband's friend's wife. You follow?

    I helped this loose contact a couple of months ago with a clothing swap fundraiser for her playhouse. I had NO idea she was the book coordinator for the reading for the blind facility. She has worked with them for 23 years!!!

    Hopefully, this is where God wants me to be.

    Also, my goal is to be faithful at the house of God. I think I know what church to go to now.

    Where are you on resolutions?

    Stay prayerful guys.

    Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    May all of your BEST DREAMS COME TRUE.

    That is my wish for 2010. There are no deaths, just marriages and births!!!!!!!!!!!! There is no job loss, just increase and houses built!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There are no excuses, just go-getters making it happen.

    Never one for resolutions but I am happy for new beginnings. I am also grateful for the past.

    Soooo in 2010, I look forward to:

    1. Completing my novel
    2. GRADUATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    3. Debt elimination
    4. All of you being around for the ride!

    What are your expectations for 2010?

    My Twitter Ramblings

    Twitter is a funny little world. There are celebrities, businesses, regular folk and bloggers all mixing it up with one another.

    It's also peculiar that everyone feels the need to dispense wisdom via a 140 characters. I started a little meem entitled #causeimdeep. Here are a few proverbs from www.twitter.com/Talulazoeapple

    I listen to Sade when I clean #Causeimdeep

    I drink tea with my pinky cup while day dreaming #Causeimdeep

    I tweet about other people's drama and not my own #causeimdeep

    I saw a dead squirrel on ,my walking trail, I poured out a little water in memorium #causeimdeep

    Trust in the Lord and lean not 2 ur own understanding. In all thy ways acknowldge him, and He shall direct thy paths #causeimdeep

    I put lol at the end of sentences when I am really serious about what I just wrote. #causeimdeep (lol)

    Love is like Jello, and there's always room for Jello #causeimdeep

    If u get caught in the rain, remember the sun will shine again #causeimdeep

    If an elevator misses ur floor, you have an extra ride to get it right #causeimdeep

    See I mixed in a few serious tweets with my jokes. . .  #Causeimdeep

    Follow me on Twitter!!!!!!!

    Things I Saw On My Sunday Walk

    Today I decided to do a picture story. You can fill in the ending.

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    On my walk I looked for signs,

    Signs of life, Signs of the time.

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    I saw a purple flower, surrounded by a sea of gold.

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    I saw warnings. Yet I pressed forward.

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    Sometimes you can't see the forest for the trees.

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    Is there anything sadder than a Christmas tree in the daytime, before Thanksgiving without lights?

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    The sign states that all pets should be on a leash. LOL

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