Detoxification: Getting the Fs Out of My Life

I said a prayer -  actually, a song. The lyrics being:

"Heal my heart and make it clean/Open up my eyes to the things unseen."

I saw nothing. I pondered why was my connection to God so static-filled. It was if I could not hear his direction in my life anymore. I then I became still. As I breathed slowly, reminiscing on how many great things God had performed in my life, it came to me. I could not hear God because of all of the surrounding noise.

This noise – negativity, doubt, drama, anxiety – were all originating from sources outside of myself that I was ingesting. Like a diet of junk food, my life was heavy and bloated. I hate drama. I avoid it like the plague, so why was I allowing other people to dump their drama on me? Why was I in the presence of people who try to tear me down or throw constant shade?  So, I decided to detox everything and everyone that does not make me better or bring peace.

So, no I did not return that phone call or keep that lunch date. Just no.

Voila! My stomach stopped hurting. I had seriously been having nonstop acid reflux and stomach pain to the point I was about to make an appointment. Just 2 days of detox and it has disappeared.

The blame is not on other people. It is on myself. I allowed my distance from my family to create loneliness. Out of loneliness, I held on to friends and relationships that were toxic. Ingesting friendship with a side of shade. Like Sweet Brown says, "Ain't nobody got time for that!"

I am on the verge of greatness. You cannot soar with dead weight impacting your performance.

Like most things, it changes in the spiritual before manifesting in the natural. I am detoxing emotionally/spiritually, I shall also detox physically. I bought a juicer. This detoxification of the bad Fs in my life – food and friends – has begun.

I will keep you posted. 🙂

Leave a Reply