I Finally Got Myself A Cat

So happy now! I mean right now in this very moment. I have learned to just be in the moment and stop time traveling.Right now, I am good because God is good.

These past few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster. Friends tripping, car tripping, everywhere something or somebody tripping.Then God reminded me in a very small yet enormously meaningful way that HIS eyes are on the sparrow and HE watches and cares for me.


 These past few weeks have not been totally roller-coastery. I have been enjoying my acting class quite a bit. We actually met after one situation of trippage. My teacher asked us to tell her how we were feeling without saying the conventional "fine". During my  turn, I was open and honest about a stressful meeting I had that had bothered me all day. After I got it out, I did not think about it even once more during class.

Being able to speak open and honest is so freeing.

 It is monologue time in class. I had to ponder what to pick that encompasses who I am emotionally at this moment. My selection is a monlogue by the character Maggie from A Cat on a Hot Tin Roof by Tennessee Williams. If you are unfamiliar with this play, there is a film version starring Elizabeth Taylor and Paul Newman. She is a beautiful, fiesty kitten not afraid to go for what she wants although everything around her is one big roller coaster. Sounds like someone I know.

I am excited about this new year, my new age and my new venture into acting. God has blessed me with unique talents and gifts. They will not grow sitting on my couch wishing and hoping.I got to put my faith into action and go for what I want.

Side Note: I saw John "Overton Wakefield Jones" Henton (Living Single) at the Improv. He is like totally funny. I wore a sparkly dress and everything. One thing for sure, based on the reactions I got in that dress, I won't have the need to get a real cat! lol

A Streetcar Named Desire – My Thoughts

As a freshman in undergrad, I began taking a lot of fiction classes. One particular year I was on a serious Tennessee Williams kick. I read everything I could find; The Glass Menagerie, Summer and Smoke, The Sweet Bird of Youth. Later when I became obsessed with old movies, I got into A Cat on a Hot Tin Roof (Paul Newman was BRILLIANT as Brick Pollitt) and  Sweet Bird of Youth (also starring Paul Newman).

I watched A Streetcar Named Desire last night and it was disturbingly good. Vivien Leigh is brilliant in her insanity as Blanche DuBois. Marlon Brando is genius as brutish husband Stanley Kowalski.

I have to admit that I was a pretty naive back then. I totally missed the overarching themes of homosexuality in William's plays. I totally missed the fact that he himself was homosexual. He frequently wrote from his life experiences- his mother being a hysteric, his sister's mental illness and lobotomy, his father's preference for his more masculine brother.

Williams was also the brand of writer who chose to live life in order to write about it. He moved to New Orleans which became the setting for A Streetcar Named Desire. I , too, suffer from this malady. I am trying to balance practicality with the desire to experience as much as I can. If I had a million dollars, I would so travel the countryside, travel the world with nothing but a camera and a notebook.

Although a dreamer, I don't suffer from mental illness. So,writing about adventure and escape will have to do for now. I have a semester to finish and a career to launch.

You can read more about Tennessee Williams here.